Knock, Knock, Who's There?

People act like everyone has the same hardships, like we all look to the underdog generation-wise, but in the end it's only underdog generations in a situation who suffer.

Around the Whole World

I wonder what the hot spots are in the US and around the world, surely not just big cities.  They are hot spots to other places in the US and around "the real world."

Here's my guess, these areas:

The US
Fort Lauderdale, Florida
New Orleans, Louisiana
Cleveland, Ohio
Boston, Massachusetts
Los Angeles, California
New York, New York
Washington, DC
Madison, Wisconsin
the state of New Jersey
the state of Minnesota

The World
Germany
France
Sweden
England
Japan

The Odd One Out

It's funny how I feel I could never live my life like other people, in certain ways.  I see other people out there making it, with long fingers that seem more slender than mine, nice necks, not a stupid-looking double chin, blue eyes, likable hair...  Where is all this coming from?  Do people with these traits really "make it?"  Do they just copy their parents or are they born with this in their future?  Is that why no one likes me or is it because I am 1/2 Chinese?

Height and Weight

Monday, October 29, 2018 - 11:42 AM (just had a little breakfast)
139 pounds - 5'3"

The Odd One Out

It seems like the people who like to hang out like a gang but with a more spiritually ecological cause are considered like groupies who banded together and made it out like they are me, like I "lost my title" as a goody-good, so they see.

That's what's wrong with my life with kids.  I realize they had bad childhoods in this world, but they've all banded together like they're cool and get to improve, like I don't.


I also noticed I took the backseat to driving, when people think about me.  They are in love with people who behave badly just to losen up the environment, but I'm not here to worship them doing that to me.


People keep acting like I am out-of-place rather than what they used to call being good at something or doing it how you're supposed to or moreso something else, being "talented."  If people recognize something seems attractive, they don't want to make friends but act like it's just a weird thing to happen and that it's seen as bad and outspoken really, which is bad because a lot of musicians are tacky in a serious way and it is known that people don't like classical as much as pop.


It's strange that these goody-good gang type people are like always having a moment that they were actually better than me, pretending I did something bad, though I sorta grew up on top.  It might even be racism.  I like to let people know my race, but sometimes people don't know anyway, so.  I mean, I was considered well-behaved and fun, sort of a normal person, neat, clean, you get the picture.

Dance

I took hip hop and I found it was worth starting.

Next is intermediate/advanced jazz and contemporary, which is based on ballet.

After I'm good, I might be able to do ballet.  My only problem is memorization during class, but the hip hop wasn't as bad.

These are teen/adult classes.

I Long to See You ... Are You Going to Scarborough Fair??

Big Fish Swallowed by an Even Bigger Fish

The Orlando area is a hard place to tame.  Florida is fine, I think.  The US is a big fish.  The world is an even bigger fish.  Those that are more doing right in the end may have some control, at least sometimes, but have succumbed to tragedy.

Weight and Height

Sunday, October 28, 2018 - 11:37 AM (just woke up)
137 pounds - 5'3.25"

Good and Bad Eggs and Nuts

People seem to be very uppity and into if someone claims they are at a serious craft or art and they don't produce a decent, friendly result.  It could be the end, in other people's opinions.

Update

I added a page of my weight and height record near the bottom of the blog.

1/2 Spanish

1/2 Spanish / Latin American 1/2 Scottish

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It seems a lot of people are actually 1/2 Spanish.  I heard it was like being 1/2 Asian.

This girl is Scottish.  I like a Scottish actress, Tilda Swinton, who played the queen/witch in The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe from the 2000s.  There are some very attractive, strong and witty people from Scotland.

I like Spanish girls, too, and the men have a good rapport.

1/2 Korean

1/2 Korean 1/2 Spanish / Latin American

1/2 Asian

Japanese girl in Japan

Me - 1/2 Chinese-Indonesian with mixed Asian (maybe some Polynesian)

Rude

Why do people think of me as a problem, on automatic?

Everyone is waiting for me to lose what's most important to me in public more and more.

Why do they think they are okay?

I'm on top, now. Popular.

I may have lost relationships with most of the most popular Late Boomers I know or something  in some way tragically with anyone how they are important to me, but at least I know I don't have to worry about most of them or be concerned.

Knock Knock, Who's There?

People think that I can think of Early Boomers and the Golden Age as not only my parents but my soulmates, in some system by default.  It's not even for me but for their pride.  I am not little compared to them in relation to how little people even younger than me are, so put that in your math.

Being American

Modified lyrics:

"I'm not proud to be an American,
Where I know in price I'm free,"

And I won't forget man who lied
And gave this life to me,

And I gladly stand up …
Next to you
And amend this here today
Cuz there ain't know doubt
I loathe this land …
I confess the USA!"

Signed Up

I signed up for the first hip hop class for free.

Dance Classes

$135  for 3 classes a week per month.  Teen/Adult classes in intermediate/advanced jazz, hip hop, and contemporary.

I want the exercise, but I'm glad to dance again.  I grew up doing ballet sometimes.